Letter for Someone I Used To Know

Hey,

You're not going to find this in your letterbox or in your Hotmail inbox. Maybe you won't find it ever and I'm being an idiot hoping you'll stumble onto this one day. But I write this in an attempt for the world to understand that I'm sorry for my involvement in what was said and done about a year ago.

It's a bit pointless doing this, really. It's like when Kevin Rudd apologised to the Stolen Generations in 2008; the concept was sentimental, but their responses were varied. And your potential response to this might be something involving the words "****" and "off". But I'll go out on a limb and say that it's OK how you respond to this (if ever), because any response from you (albeit non-physical or un-diplomatic) would let me know I'm not entirely dead to you.
Because as much as I have attempted to put the past behind me and move on with my life, something keeps reminding me of all the good past memories; and she has your crazy hair and chocolate-y eyes.

After the time we last spoke, I'll admit the thought of ever seeing you again was enough to make me look under the bed at night; ensuring you and a knife weren't there waiting for me to sleep. It scared me. But common sense eventually assured me that you weren't homicidal. I soon decided that if one day, we ever saw each other, we'd carry on as if the other didn't exist.
Or you'd leap on top of me and strangle me to death. Either way, it'd bring about an influx of bittersweet memories.

So with this; I'm sorry for leaving you behind. In all honesty, I thought that after all the drama, it was the best thing to do. And then when I had any desire to change my mind, I had no idea of what I'd say or do when you picked up the phone/read your emails/saw me. And in any case, it was too late to change things. Mutual awkwardness or World War III were the most likely outcomes, and it would be folly to complicate things further.

Besides, knowing you, you've moved on from me anyway and found a new best friend. You've probably begun paving your way towards your ambitions, and well done to you if that's the case. I wouldn't know; no news has come about. But I assume you haven't died, so that's all good.
I'm not dead either, in case you ever wondered. 11 months later and all is marvellous. You haven't been replaced; because you're the irreplaceable type of girl. But I've got someone awesome for a new favourite best friend, and she's not perfect. She has an odd laugh and we'll never see eye to eye in terms of music. But she's interesting, hilarious, kind, intelligent, beautiful and virtuous in ways that are unique and what I believe to make her such an important person in my life; they are not bars which you failed to raise. You never failed me as a friend, ever, but it was time and distance that eventually drew what we believed to be infinite to an end.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right. I hope you had the time of your life.
I'm ripping off Green Day, but it's sad that it's true. The memories I have of you are predominantly fond, and I hope that perhaps even now, the feeling is still mutual.
All the very best for whatever you do in life....

Warm regards; me.

The Greatest Cake Ever

T'was the day of the Doctor Who 50th anniversary, and I felt that such a jubilee was worth at least a cake.
So for 2 hours, I made the greatest thing I will ever do; A DALEK CAKE!!!!!!!!!!

Hope you all had a fantastic 50th anniversary... I know I did :)

50 Great Things About Doctor Who

For five wondrous decades, the world has been exposed to the sic-fi phenomenon known by all as Doctor Who.
Whether you enjoy the rebooted series or the classics, countless numbers of people who appreciate the Doctor they know can unite on this glorious day and celebrate the anniversary of the worlds greatest science-fiction franchise.

1. William Hartnell; the worlds first Doctor. The man who pretty much began the wonderful phenomenon that the coolest people in the world love. 
2. Patrick Troughton. Don't be fooled by the haircut; this Doctor was indeed one of the most lively and crazy Doctors. And he played an INSTRUMENT! 10 muso points!
3. John Pertwee. Made bow ties cool before the Eleventh. And he had a whole array of vehicles other than the TARDIS... even a little plane. 
4. Tom Baker. THAT SCARF. THAT CURLY MOP OF HAIR. The most iconic Doctor of them all; anyone from the 1970's will agree with me. Unless they're my mum, who likes the Tenth Doctor because he's... insanely good looking. 
   
5. Peter Davison. Father-in-law to David Tennant, father of David Tennant's wife and a brilliant Fifth incarnation to boot!!! And he's inspired me to start wearing my food, instead of eating it.
6. Colin Baker. I've yet to see for myself his accomplishments, but he became a Doctor, so he makes the list.
7. Sylvester McCoy. Ditto. I can also respect his use of a question-mark umbrella.
8. Paul McGann; the Doctor who only made one movie. And only recently has another official video of him as The Doctor been released (in honour of the 50th anniversary) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-U3jrS-uhuo. Be sure to check it out; it's quite good!
9. Christopher Eccleston. LOVE THIS GUY!!!! He's not the most attractive incarnation, but he brought the badass element to everyones favourite Time Lord. And his smile and occasional silliness bring a smile to my face. 
10. DAVID. TENNANT
    
11. Matt Smith. My least favourite of all the Doctor incarnations, but I do have to admit he's enthralled me once or twice in certain episodes. And a lot of people like him, so he's done something right.
12. Peter Capaldi. Because Matt Smiths reign of terror is coming to a close (Christmas, actually) and Mr Capaldi is his successor, I can't wait to see what happens! 
13. John Hurt (the unknown Doctor). The episode he features in has yet to be viewed by me, but I'll see him later tonight in The Day of The Doctor. 
14. The TARDIS. Time And Relative Dimension In Space. It's the most retro time (and space) machine in the history of time travel. The majesty of the mysterious blue box is more grand than many things I've seen.... and it's not real.
15. The wonders of the future. Whenever you see an episode set in the Earths future, it's so interesting seeing what might become of our little human race. And if it's an episode like 'Fear Her' or 'Dalek', set in 2012, it's funny looking upon it now (in 2013).
16. The representations of the past. Whenever The Doctor goes back in time and meets people like Winston Churchill/Madame de Pompadour/William Shakespeare and gets involved in their lives, it truly is fascinating seeing the contrast between the all-worldly Doctor  
17. Daleks
18. Cybermen
19. Celery (FUN FACT: The celery Peter Davison wore was a fake; he hates celery)
20. Long scarves
21. The food (jelly babies, bananas, fish fingers, custard, chips....)
22. The theme song
23. The soundtrack; the one thing that takes up a significant percentage of the memory on my iPod. Go look it up...
24. The special effects and how they've progressed throughout the duration of the whole franchise.
25. Each and every monster and alien from the classic series and the rebooted one.
26. Vashta Nerada. The shadows that melt the flesh. Where there's meat, there's Vashta Nerada. They're one of the coolest monsters in science fiction!
27. River Song. RIVER. BLOODY. SONG. Although she's a primary component of the Matt Smith episodes, she makes watching them worth it.
28. The lessons we learn from the show.
29. SONIC STUFF. In Doctor Who, there isn't just the sonic screwdriver; there's pens, lipsticks and  blaster guns. And their capabilities stretch far beyond the typical screwdrivers and that does make you wish that screwdrivers were a little more sonic.
30. Martha Jones; the first companion I saw. Her intellect and kickass red leather jacket defied the stereotype of what action-women should be like (listen to the men and your clothing should stick to your skin). She taught me to fight for what I believe in and that intelligence makes anyone sexy. 
31. Donna Noble; the sassiest, boldest and most awesome companion ever. I often go so far as to say she's my favourite, but that's because she did so much and never sought any self-gain from it. Plus, she looks pretty stunning in a wedding dress. And she's played by the ever-brilliant Catherine Tate.
32. Rose Tyler. The first companion of the rebooted series, and the one who embedded herself into many fans hearts (and The Doctors as well). No one can tell me they didn't cry in the Doomsday episode. She wasn't as smart as Martha or as feisty as Donna, but she was sweet and empathetic, even to that Dalek in the episode "Dalek" (very original title.... not).
    
33. The film locations; Cardiff, London, Rome..... They're endless and astonishing. 
34. The generations of people who've grown up on Doctor Who (the oldest and biggest fans).
35. Converse 
36. Supermassive colourful stripy scarves
37. Leather jackets that radiate badass-ness. Or "boat captain"-ness. 
38. The catchphrases; "Fantastic!", "Allons-y!", "EXTERMINATE!", "DELETE!", "Sontar-HAH!" and even "Geronimo!" are all T-shirt worthy indeed.
39. Fezzes and bow ties. I really don't like Matt Smith and his portrayal of The Doctor, but I have to agree with him on the awesomeness of bow ties and fezzes. 
40. All those guest stars that we see in other TV shows and we then geek out
41. Torchwood. The greatest spinoff show ever. I cannot get enough of the Welsh accents and mystery... or John Barrowmans cockiness.
42. Sarah Jane Smith. Enough said. 
43. Chameleon Circuit (the band). These guys are composed of Doctor Who nerds who write and play songs about Doctor Who... featuring the ever cool Charlie McDonald. 
44. The inspirational quotes; "Go forward in all your beliefs and prove to me that I am not mistaken in mine" and "The greatest adventures, my dear boy, often lead to the greatest discoveries" are both some of the pearls of wisdom offered by the First Doctor. There's a library of other good quotes from the other incarnations.
45. The funny quotes 
46. The cosplay options; you can go as a villian, alien, companion or The Doctor himself. All the Doctor Who costume options seem to be bigger on the inside...
47.  All those cool pictures you see on Tumblr that depict how creative us Whovians are. 
    
48.  All the incarnations of The Master (except the one from the Doctor Who movie. That's the only thing about the franchise that saddens me) 
    
49.  All those celebrities who like the show. The Queen of England especially.... (yes; even Her Majesty herself likes a bit of time travel) 
50.  All of us other fans. Every man, woman, child, adolescent, nerd, geek, dork, fanboy/fangirl who has willingly accepted Doctor Who into their lives has been the key to the immense success of one of the worlds greatest television shows. It's people like us that will make this show live up to milestones like 75 years... maybe even 100?? Who knows. But according to this: 
    
    And with that in mind; go forth and enjoy this frabjous day!! ALLONS-Y!!!
    If you haven't seen The Day of The Doctor yet.... you are not alone (pun intended). I've yet to see it and if you're anything like me, you're both scared and excited at the same time. 
    
    

The Minds Of Children (Fun Size Post)

Each and every day, we interact with at least one person; online or in reality. Minds meet through communication and by doing this, we learn more about each other and subliminally, we learn more about the psychology of that person.
Without really meaning to, we begin to understand what makes them tick. If you're anything like me, you observe the mental traits of everyone; especially those of the manager at the 7-Eleven.

By applying psychological thought consciously (i.e. you know you're studying the behaviour of others), you learn stuff about everyone else that Sherlock Holmes would have deduced instantly.
And while we're on the topic of deduction, let me introduce the topic of this post by saying that it will not be about Sherlock Holmes, but rather about something I've learnt this week.
And it is that no matter who you meet in life; you'll always have to face the mental characteristics of children.

This week was an interesting week to say the least; it had begun spectacularly. And then by about Thursday, it had all decided to spiral downwards.
Not because my mind was psychologically tuned to match that of a child, but there was elements of child-like behaviour involved in the descent of happiness.
Upon reflection of the events of the past few days, that was when I came to the conclusion that childish behaviour is exhibited in almost everything we do.

• In moments of certain forms of happiness, we lose all mature thought and go with our childish logic; because when we are happy, our 'inner child' rejoices and decides to make us more playful/giggly/silly. 
• When someone says or does anything that we interpret as a bad thing, sometimes we go and play with the other children in the playground because that person is now a deadly enemy. And because that's how it is and because they're a "bad person", we ignore them and not include them in our games.
• Sometimes you appeal to certain people and only hold their attention with things that normally interest children (food, guns, cars, 'shiny' stuff....). And when you no longer provide the trinkets or entertainment, then their attention is GONE.
• And sometimes, when certain people don't get the 'toys' they want, but another person does; then there is a jealousy crisis more deadly than cyanide.  The jealous person will then therefore resort to doing things that a child would do (saying negative stuff, making up rumours and acting all innocent about it when deep down you know that they're a lying b*****d). Because if they can't have the 'toy', they're going to make the other person suffer as well. Or put up a massive, hysterical fuss until they get what they want.
• Sometimes people take the games of "following the leader" and make believe a bit too seriously and they try to replicate the "leaders" life/make a new and different life from scratch and incorporate all that the leader/influence does into their own life. People that do that need to get away from the dress up box and use their imagination to come up with their own life (Imagination is one of few childhood elements people must never let go of).

Maybe when we're affected by the negative actions of people who exhibit these childish traits constantly, we're meant to take on a more mature role and exhibit authority/dominance over them. However you look at it; they can't keep being a kid forever. And if they refuse to admit they're being a bad kid, then you need to leave them in the naughty corner to rot.
Because they're not your biological offspring and you are not their guardian. Why should you look after them if they're not meant to be your problem??

Leave the strange kid in the corner and go enjoy your life. You're a strong independent person, not a single parent. (If you are an actual single parent; I'm sorry if you've been offended)