Ciao guys,
This isn't the results of the horoscope experiment like I promised (I'm sorry- your patience must be limitless!), nor is it about a current event that is taking the world by storm. Instead, it's another one of my posts about something on my mind. So bear with me and my boringness until the next post...
Recently I've seen and experienced things that have changed my outlook on life. Love, family, spirituality, everything that life has to offer, my outlook on it has changed. For either the better or worse, that has yet to be discovered, but with everything changing around me (and others), the definitions of things have changed also.
For instance, the meaning of family, to me, no longer applies to just my relatives. Because as I change, so have some of them, and not for the good. Each day I'm seperated from them even more. . And this division leaves you stranded. Who do you rely on now to catch you when you fall? When you need help, who'll answer the call?
Now, it's my dearest friends and the other family members I treasure. Because family isn't defined by blood. It's defined by those who care about you, who you feel at home around and who you know will never give up on you.
Some people say "your family is who you are". In some cases, that may be true. But who you are is reflected in how you view everything and in how you treat others.
I've also come to realise that love is absurd. Or that people's definitions of love are absurd. "love is easy, love is beautiful...." That's bollocks. From what I've observed, love makes trigonometry look like the 2 times table. Love isn't always beautiful; since when are lonely nights, fears and insecurities beautiful? You want my definition of love?
Take 2 people. Add some happiness, then just for kicks add some pain. Throw in complications, similarities and differences, let that simmer for ages, and while it is simmering, add some hard times to make things the exact opposite of dull. Throw in those friends who act as reactive catalysts and BAM! Results may differ, depending on who's the one being loved and who's the one who nobody knows what's going on in their heart. This isn't so much a definition as a recipe for disaster, but that's what I've come to accept: that this is my life.
Then there's the issue of spirituality. What do you believe, which is right and what happens when you settle on a decision? Which is logical and which is bollocks? Which is fact and which is fiction? So far, the search has provided more questions than answers. In the end, all I'm hoping for is that the world wasn't created by a flying Spaghetti Monster.
So in spite of my re-defining life and everything that makes it stupid, I hope you all have a great week. If you have any ideas for posts, solutions to my problems or your own definitions for things, let me know in the comments below!
Arrividerci, Vivmarie1407
This isn't the results of the horoscope experiment like I promised (I'm sorry- your patience must be limitless!), nor is it about a current event that is taking the world by storm. Instead, it's another one of my posts about something on my mind. So bear with me and my boringness until the next post...
Recently I've seen and experienced things that have changed my outlook on life. Love, family, spirituality, everything that life has to offer, my outlook on it has changed. For either the better or worse, that has yet to be discovered, but with everything changing around me (and others), the definitions of things have changed also.
For instance, the meaning of family, to me, no longer applies to just my relatives. Because as I change, so have some of them, and not for the good. Each day I'm seperated from them even more. . And this division leaves you stranded. Who do you rely on now to catch you when you fall? When you need help, who'll answer the call?
Now, it's my dearest friends and the other family members I treasure. Because family isn't defined by blood. It's defined by those who care about you, who you feel at home around and who you know will never give up on you.
Some people say "your family is who you are". In some cases, that may be true. But who you are is reflected in how you view everything and in how you treat others.
I've also come to realise that love is absurd. Or that people's definitions of love are absurd. "love is easy, love is beautiful...." That's bollocks. From what I've observed, love makes trigonometry look like the 2 times table. Love isn't always beautiful; since when are lonely nights, fears and insecurities beautiful? You want my definition of love?
Take 2 people. Add some happiness, then just for kicks add some pain. Throw in complications, similarities and differences, let that simmer for ages, and while it is simmering, add some hard times to make things the exact opposite of dull. Throw in those friends who act as reactive catalysts and BAM! Results may differ, depending on who's the one being loved and who's the one who nobody knows what's going on in their heart. This isn't so much a definition as a recipe for disaster, but that's what I've come to accept: that this is my life.
Then there's the issue of spirituality. What do you believe, which is right and what happens when you settle on a decision? Which is logical and which is bollocks? Which is fact and which is fiction? So far, the search has provided more questions than answers. In the end, all I'm hoping for is that the world wasn't created by a flying Spaghetti Monster.
So in spite of my re-defining life and everything that makes it stupid, I hope you all have a great week. If you have any ideas for posts, solutions to my problems or your own definitions for things, let me know in the comments below!
Arrividerci, Vivmarie1407
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